Why Exquisite?

Ten years ago I found myself in a hospital with loved ones around me who were clearly in as much emotional pain, as I was in medicated numbness. Whether it was the Demerol or shock or both, I find myself immersed in what was a profound emotion of guilt, at being the cause of my loved ones intense emotional pain.

This guilt was so complete that the experience itself became what I could only call “exquisite.” It was overwhelming, without room for any other feeling, including judgment of it, myself or the circumstances that lead us all to this “place.” As I marveled at my capacity to feel such complete emotion, it shifted to something akin to joy, at being able to experience such profound…anything!

This moment passed, as did the transition which brought it on, but the keen awareness that anything has the ability to be experienced exquisitely!

So here’s to Exquisite Transitions!