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Butterfly Guilt

When asked about how often I blog I’ve explained: Whenever the spirit or a knowing moves me to do so.

Does this extended absence here mean nothing’s going on? Absolutely not. It does mean that the exquisite awareness-clearing-healing hasn’t blossomed yet. It appears that once again, the cocoon is bursting open…

Since May I have found myself in a situation in which I am “forced” to experience abundance. This may sound like a joke, but like MANY of us, I am extremely uncomfortable with living within abundance. All along there has been an undercurrent of “something.” Until tonight I couldn’t put my finger on what this undercurrent was. Tonight it broke through like the butterfly breaking free from its cocoon… guilt!

In speaking with my honey as we often do…projecting ourselves into an alternate reality in which we can both clearly see, feel and KNOW what’s happening, I found myself identifying a sense of needing to apologize to my in-laws for what they must see as this sudden abundance. [At the same time I am clear that I don’t owe them an explanation!]

So it would seem this butterfly has firm sense of boundaries, all the while nursing a mass conscious creation of something being  sinful, wrong, superficial, materialistic…about abundance. Mind you I am very clear to say abundance vs (material) wealth. They may look the same, but they are not the same. There in lies the problem.

I reflect and I recognize my situation is one of abundance which was forced upon me and any attempt to side step this experience would have gone against everything I believe in. And it just now strikes me that this is the irony…what I truly believe in is Abundance! I believe that each of us has a right to have their basic needs fulfilled. Yet currently the majority must suffer in order to attempt to fulfill these needs. That is counter-intuitive. And immoral. And the antithesis of Abundance.

While our systems of government/politics and finance/economics twists us into a moral personnel dilemma about paying your own way, “personal responsibility” even–the higher truth that underlies it is: every Being deserves to have their basic needs met. That has very strong political and economic implications, if we were to let that little secret out…so we plant seeds of doubt and judgment toward demonstrations of true abundance–even our own.

Ah well, not my problem anymore. I’ll leave it to the rest of these blooming cocoons to awaken to this themselves… now let’s see what’s going on over here…….


Changing Money: The Giving Pledge

Those of us who are aware of the esoteric changes happening in this third dimensional world are acutely aware of changes occurring in the institutions and global systems that have been in place for eons. We have witnessed the erosion of many markets and industries, some on the brink of collapse–this in preparation for establishing systems that sustain a far higher vibrational frequency.

There is a great deal of focus on these collapsing paradigms. I actively seek out evidence of the coming shift into 5th dimensional frequencies — it helps me maintain balance in this time where we walk with one foot in each world.

An enormous shift that gives me such a sense of the 5th dimensional frequencies visibly manifesting in our “everyday” world is “The Giving Pledge,” a cause initiated by Bill and Melinda Gates and Warren Buffett. The pledge is a moral (not legal) commitment to give away a minimum of 50% of their wealth to charities of their choice, either during their lifetime or upon their death.

The Gates are Open to All for the Buffett that Lies Beyond

Not only have they personally pledged to give a way far more than 50% of their personal wealth, they are actively challenging other super wealthy to do the same. Recently it was reported that 40 other billionaires had made the pledge, including New York Mayor Michael Bloomberg, CNN founder Ted Turner, Oracle co-founder Larry Ellison and Hollywood director George Lucas, as well as Buffett and Gates–and they were just getting started!

I am awestruck by all this! I don’t know about you but my heart just open so much wider when I initially read about this, and clearly the movement is taking root. The focus is not on any particular charities, or the morality of rich vs poor. It is simply a recognition that their is no need for massive accumulation of wealth.

Here’s a short piece from the pledge by Warren Buffett:

“My wealth has come from a combination of living in America, some lucky genes, and compound interest. Both my children and I won what I call the ovarian lottery. (For starters, the odds against my 1930 birth taking place in the U.S. were at least 30 to 1. My being male and white also removed huge obstacles that a majority of Americans then faced.) My luck was accentuated by my living in a market system that sometimes produces distorted results, though overall it serves our country well. I’ve worked in an economy that rewards someone who saves the lives of others on a battlefield with a medal, rewards a great teacher with thank-you notes from parents, but rewards those who can detect the mispricing of securities with sums reaching into the billions. In short, fate’s distribution of long straws is wildly capricious.

The reaction of my family and me to our extraordinary good fortune is not guilt, but rather gratitude. Were we to use more than 1% of my claim checks on ourselves, neither our happiness nor our well-being would be enhanced. In contrast, that remaining 99% can have a huge effect on the health and welfare of others. That reality sets an obvious course for me and my family: Keep all we can conceivably need and distribute the rest to society, for its needs. My pledge starts us down that course.”

and this excerpt from Bill and Melinda Gates:

“Both of us were fortunate to grow up with parents who taught us some tremendously important values. Work hard. Show respect. Have a sense of humor. And if life happens to bless you with talent or treasure, you have a responsibility to use those gifts as well and as wisely as you possibly can. Now we hope to pass this example on to our own children.

We feel very lucky to have the chance to work together in giving back the resources we are stewards of.  By joining the Giving Pledge effort, we’re certain our giving will be more effective because of the time we will spend with this group. We look forward to sharing what a wonderful experience this has been for us and learning from the experience of others.

Best Wishes,

Bill and Melinda Gates”

To read the full letters, as well as the pledges of others who are pledging their wealth, go to http://givingpledge.org/#enter. I applaud the realization by these folks and in particular Bill Gates and Warren Buffett for spearheading this change in money paradigm of the western world! The gifts these men have given and received over their lifetimes pale by comparison to the shift in consciousness they are put forth now! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.



A fellow blogger wrote yesterday about her rediscovery of a lesson of seeing life and loved ones through a filter of anger. Such filters by definition are invisible to us until we make a decision to shift perspectives. Many of us know this, have created this awareness in our lives, and yet we are gifted opportunities to experience it at ever deeper levels.

Often times lessons come in layers. We may learn something intellectually. Then it’s followed by a personal experiential learning. And yet, often times even that is not enough. Perhaps its not as powerful, not as near and dear to us. If we haven’t gotten it, we continue to create the circumstances which invite us to truly learn at a profoundly deep level, and our wisdom and  vibrational frequency increases.

I question if it ever truly stops, this integration of these things we already “know.” This is the spiritual push-back that we create — the gift of exquisite discovery and profound awareness as we emerse ourselves in the purity of energy in motion (e-motion).

Home Again

After an absolutely perfect vacation and equally perfect trip back to NY, we’re home again. Back at work, but feeling great. Relaxed and flowing with whatever. Straightening out some snafu’s, but nothing overwhelming.

What’s more amazing than the breezy readjustment in the traveling home,  the time change and being back in the office is how different I am.  I am here, but I’m not all there…LOL. And what’s more, I am very okay with it!

Whether its something about work, doing something at home or going on my lunchtime walk, I notice that what may have previously been on autopilot is now off. And apparently from time to time the human pilot is off somewhere too.

What surprises me is how okay I am with how I am. It actually feels good to not be in conscious control at all times.  So while I am home again, I am also not all home, and it’s a good thing!

Leavin' the light on for when I return

IF I return 😉

Who is this strange person??

I don’t recognize me! Not because I don’t look the same, but because I don’t react as I used to. Of course a number of things that have been happening wouldn’t have happened to “the old me,” at least not with the frequency they are happening now.

In the last 3 months I’ve lost a brand new pair of prescription glasses, had 2 encounters with black ice, one where my car hit the guard rail, the other where my head hit the car and then the pavement. And just tonight I realized I can’t find $300 that I had set aside for our trip, just yesterday.

Coming or Going?

Now any one of these would have had me beating myself up endlessly in the past. The truth is I am not one to lose things as a rule. But then nothing is as it once was, and it feels like things are “disappearing on me.” Here one moment, gone the next. Perhaps this is what makes it easier for me to let it go, shrug my shoulders and say “Oh well.”

Mind you, money is tight so losing new glasses, having to pay a deductible on a car repair or outright “dematerialize” cash is not something trivial to me. But what I am finding even more astonishing than all these occurrences is my response to them. It’s not mental, or an intellectual exercise–from the truest part of me I can say “Oh well,” and just let it be what it is. Maybe this is what it feels like to detach from things, from money, from perceived value?

And I must say, as someone who has been very attached in the past, probably obsessively so, it feels “like easy come, easy go.” This is particularly strange because it hasn’t really been coming easy at all! I have been working extremely hard for the little I make. Yet, it still feels like “easy come, easy go.”

Maybe, just maybe, it is really: easy go, easy come. I’ve experienced the easy go (as in, I will not stress over it going), so just maybe its time for the easy come now too. LOL. I’ll let you know! 😉

This is Who I Am

Please check out my new anthem.

This Is Who I Am Lyrics

I spend my life
Trying to do things right
but all I do is fall to my face with my hands on my head so many times

but then I learnt,after being burnt
to get back up, push straight on, stop the tears,
people move on onn.

Well it’s alright to be myself
Now I’ve Learned To Stand
Well its OK to be just who I am
I’ve spent years really hating me

longing to be friends (friends)
Now I hope that you can

This Is Who I Am

{Verse 2}
Now when life gets tough
I’m quick to hurry up
I run all day
I run through the night
I’ll break down walls, I’ll hit up high

I don’t care if I’m fat,
Or if you think my clothes are bad
Yet i can go to sleep at night I’m a good person and I’ll get by, I!!

Well it’s alright to be myself,
Now I’ve Learned To Stand
Well its OK to be just who I am

I’ve spent years really hating me
longing to be friends (friends)
Now I hope that you can understand,

This Is Who I Am

{Verse 3}
I need someone, someone someone, someone like me

You deserve, deserve, deserve to be free

Because your world keeps spinning
And your trapped in it

Well it’s alright to be myself,
Now I’ve Learned To Stand

Well its OK to be just who I am!
I’ve spent years really hating me
longing to be friends (friends)

Now I hope that you can understand

This Is Who I Am

yyeaaahhhhhh, yeah yeah

This is who I am!

Oh, take a breather this is who I ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Am.

Ain’t synchronicity grand?

Sitting In Between

Since I have been home from work for a day and a half, getting a bit of rest only goes so far. Then its playing catch up on shows I have on TiVo, playing some online games, and then…?

Last weekend I had so much I wanted to have time to do, continue working a DVD series I have, trying new things on this blog and other things I can’t even remember anymore. Just like yesterday morning, a joy-filled, energized and happy morning–so much energy for so many wonderful things. And now, I have no sense of being pulled towards anything. I’m just sitting in between, waiting for some sense of where to direct my attention.

Come again?

Perhaps this is what yesterday’s fall was about. “Time Out.” Just sit there (lay there actually) until you are ready to move again. In the meanwhile, just Be. So I guess I’ll just turn off the TV, move away from the computer and just Be for a while…sitting in between.

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