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Sleeping – Puttering – Seed-Planting Kinda Day

Some days are strange…today was one of them.

It started last night actually when no matter what I tried, I couldn’t get to sleep. Not really problem as there was nothing I had to do or anywhere I had to be this morning. But the whole day shifted as a result. I finally fell asleep around 4 am.

When I woke around 8:30 I was still tired but again didn’t feel I could just go back to sleep. That’s when the first “strange” hit me: my husband was no where to be found! Very unusual for him these days. So I had to phone him find out that he too had a strange night and had to get out to move around as his legs were bothering him. “Okay, just so I know.”

After checking email etc for a bit, puttering here and there, I sat down with my DH at the computer and started an online application that he’s been needing to initiate. I was keen on taking advantage of the New Moon energy we are still in which is very potent and positive.

After this one foray into the bureaucracy of this 3D reality, we both felt sleepy enough to try to get some more sleep. So at 10:30 or so I lay down for a nap….until 2:30! For me, highly irregular! And what made it truly “strange” was the dream. In the “dream” I felt like I had was feeling very out of sorts and could not keep my eyes open. [I believe that I had a hard time re-entering my body on this “strange” day. I could not wake up!]

Struggling to Get Back In

In the “dream” I ended up feeling my way around, trying to do things like prepare a meal for my family without being able to see for more than brief moments at a time. It went on so long that we spoke about whether or not I needed to be taken to the hospital as something was clearly “wrong.” I was feeling out of it and very clear that I was not right some how.

Thankfully something clicked and I quickly realized that I had been struggling to wake up in my body, not just in my mind. I quickly was able to move ahead, but the feeling of being “out of it” took a little longer to shake.

Continuing the sleeping-puttering pattern the day had taken on, I decided to take out the garbage. Normally, nothing noteworthy about that. Today, I walk out and notice that the apartment next door was having an open house.

The place has been on the market for a year. New realtor, new hopes for a deal…and a half an hour conversation that was less than enlightening, but very much a feeling of a seed being planted for a future opportunity–an opportunity to bring me a buyer for my place just when I need it. Hmmm. Okay, I like that.

And now that I think of it, this was actually the SECOND communication with a realtor on this strange day. When I woke this morning I had a pull to email the broker for this house I’ve been keeping my eye on in Sedona.

Since returning from Sedona much of my focus and intention has been on creating an opportunity for us to move to and create a life in Sedona. I had some questions regarding this particular house and the market there, and got a very quick response to my questions.

I have NEVER made contact with a realtor who’s listing I’ve seen online! Understand, house hunting online has been a longtime hobby of mine. I am always looking for what would make a place “perfect” for us, considering the needs of all concerned. But this was “first contact” with a broker over a particular house.

For me this was another seed being planted: I was telling the Universe, I’m serious. I was taking the risk of making contact, knowing that I can’t see the “how” from where I am, but the intention is pure and strong.

So here I am at the end of this sleeping-puttering-seed planting day, having spoken to a Realtor about buying, another about selling, and helping my DH set into motion his next step as well.

On what I’ve been told was a picture perfect Spring Day, it seems that both my honey and I have been drifting in and out of this dimension, flowing with the energies of the moment and the day, taking some baby steps…and now we wait for further direction. 😉

Waking Life…Dreams for free

Floating through the blogosphere I was directed to this wonderfully fascinating film which I just finished watching.

There’s a lot to take in here. Take the time and you are sure to be triggered many times with thoughts to ponder.

For me, this time one of the lasting references is from Lorca: “As one realizes that one is a dream figure in another persons dream, that is self awareness.”

I’m sure it will impact my dreams ;), maybe yours too.

Jumping around…

So Friday morning I woke up feeling very “out of time.” In fact, I was so disconnected from time that I would read the time on my clock and I couldn’t quite relate. I did not feel like I had enough time to get ready for work if I did my workout, even though it was the same time I get up every morning and always have just enough of time.

I chose not to workout, which turn out to be a good thing as I could not get moving. It seems that I was moving in super slow motion. This lasted for several hours. There was also a sense of general disorientation–like I was just a tad out of phase with the world around me.

I contemplated this on my drive to work (being extra careful given how I was feeling, and my experience on the way home the night before  😉 .) As I sit here for the life of me I can’t recall what my dreams were about before waking, but I do remember there was something about being late for “something.” Of course this is not an unusual dream, but it seems that I woke up in this exact state.

I reflected on the other dreams I’d been having, namely, visiting alternate realities of a seemingly lower vibration, and the fender bender I “felt” the night before. It got me to wondering what it would be like to visit alternate realities of a higher vibration, or to experience a higher vibrational version of me slip into my life.

That’s when it struck me, that if I had “jumped” into such a lower vibrational reality during dream state, perhaps remaining even into the waking state, wouldn’t things seem very dense, very slow? Wouldn’t I feel sluggish? Something about this thought really resonated.

It also got me wondering as to whether dream state is about integrating lower frequencies, and waking state is the opportunity to integrate higher frequencies. With that I consciously gave my permission to higher vibrational frequencies of my own consciousness to integrate within my life.

So we shall see…

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