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Scary thoughts


Yesterday was a tough day! Especially for a Saturday.  And as the second of the two-day Conscious Convergence event I had an expectation (first clue) that I should be feeling in a particularly high frequency space. Yet it was quite the opposite.

Setting out for my morning moving meditation down to the harbor and around, my heart felt heavy. Being a Saturday I had the opportunity to sit at the waterside for a while, but rather than feeling peaceful I was restless and sad. I repeatedly acknowledged these feelings and brought myself back to focusing on Unity. I finally recognized that first one (meaning “I”) must acknowledge and release the feelings of restlessness vs peace, sadness vs joy, desire vs resistance, right vs wrong and on and on.

Of course I’ve been through this exercise many times before, but in time one gets caught up in whichever polarity and can easily forget that residing in one side of the polarity maintains the other side also. As I recognized and released these I began to feel a sense of moving through and beyond duality. Again questioning my contribution to anchoring “Unity,” I got a clear answer “it is done.” Behind the thought was a knowing that Unity already is and that I know this in my soul. The sadness, the duality that is/was moving through me is a releasing of vestiges to fully manifest this Unity in the here and now. So as I continued my walk, I still felt an aura of sadness, but without a label…just an is-ness.


Later in the day I was confronted with more dualistic issues on the home front, which unleashed another wave of heavy-heartedness! Sad and angry I managed to communicate without rage or blame, but still there was this sadness that was from beyond me.

This sadness was morphing into thoughts that were clearly from beyond the me I know myself to be. I began to have unbidden thoughts of slitting my wrists! I didn’t want to kill myself, and yet I would see blood at my wrists, or have a sense of wanting to take something sharp to my wrists! And I knew it wasn’t me! Now mind you I know that there are people “out there” who would interpret this as some sort of possession, of the biblical kind or indicating mental illness, depending on ones leanings.

But for me, after letting go of the scariness of these thoughts and visions, it was a recognition of another me, an alternate me, in some other timeline, going through something that was leading “me/her” to such thoughts and probably actions. It went so far as my being drawn to lie down in my bathtub to have a good cry (so I felt), yet it fit with the visions of slitting my wrists, and feeling into this lower frequency reality.

As I said–scary. But I KNEW this was NOT my reality.  I was sensing/feeling/seeing it, knowing that the reason was for me to offer MY STRENGTH, MY FAITH, MY INNER BALANCE AND PEACE to that alternate me. The feeling quite clear that while the desire and actions were there, the intent to end that life was not strong, not determined. Therefore I imagine that my awareness of this alternate reality was so that I could lend my abilities, my higher frequencies if you will, to raise the frequencies of the alternate me–so she could know that this was not the way to deal with the feelings she/we were experiencing.

After getting out of the tub the feelings, thoughts and visions ended. There was a sense of greater peace about me. Once I fell asleep I slept well and woke up feeling like “me” again.

U are Needed to Create Unity — Conscious Convergence, July 16-17, 2010

The article below by Carl Calleman is a wonderful explanation of the frequency available to us now, REQUIRED of us now, for us to create the tipping point for manifesting Unity Consciousness. It is so easy to expect things to “just happen.”  We have been indoctrinated to wait for forces outside of us to bring about change. Yet we espouse creating our own reality, power of attraction and so forth. Many of us have been working with these concepts for years, lifetimes even.

Now is the time to put all that knowledge and experience into directed, focused and sustained intention: that from cellular, local, regional, national, planetary, galactic and universal levels, we achieve unity consciousness.

The Unity Wave Begins with U

Carl Calleman:

My Vision for the Conscious Convergence,
July 17-18, 2010

The preparations to facilitate the Conscious Convergence, July 17‐18, 2010 have now begun. Even if it will need the support and active collaboration of a large number of people the snowball has started rolling. Very possibly, this will become an event that influences the course of our civilization by setting the intention to manifest unity consciousness on a large scale with the ninth wave of the Maya calendars. I would then now like to share my own vision of the Conscious Convergence, and what it may accomplish, in an article that does not have too much technical detail.

Over the time period since the Harmonic Convergence in August of 1987, and maybe even earlier than that, an increasing number of people, and not just a few select mystics, have come to directly experience states of unity with all things and a purposeful direction in their own lives. Yet, although sometimes such experiences may have been enlightening or blissful, they have not come to alter the way our world at large operates. While this fact may not surprise us there is really no reason that this should be taken as a given. Such experiences, sometimes resulting from spiritual practices, have clearly been at odds with both the predominating materialist worldview and the one that sees the divine as something separate from ourselves. An increasing number of people have thus come to directly experience that some “energies” greater than themselves are working to provide guidance for them. In everyday parlance we talk about certain things having been “meant to happen” and other things “not meant to happen.” This direct experience of guiding energies is a relatively recent undercurrent of our civilization. It also intensifies as the frequency of shifts between calendrical energies increases as we approach the completion of the Mayan calendars. It is as if, through this frequency increase, the cosmic plan is now calling us to wake up and realize that we are here for a reason and that the universe has a plan. This ongoing awakening has generated a fairly widespread perception that the end of the Mayan calendars will bring a “shift in consciousness”.

Such experiences are of course made sense of in a multitude of different ways, sometimes in terms of divine intervention or astrology, depending on the individual. Yet, they always seem to imply that the universe has a higher purpose. The perception of such a purposeful direction may be the least common denominator for those that will chose to participate in the Conscious Convergence. On my own part I have come to understand what is “meant” and “not meant” to happen primarily from the broad perspective of the Mayan calendars, simply because of the vast body of scientific evidence showing that the energies these describe have been driving evolution in all of its aspects from the beginning of time.

In parallel with the increase in individual experiences of guidance there has also been a number of initiatives to organize meditations or other global spiritual events on special days that often focus on a positive cause such as peace. What I feel we need to realize however is that despite these experiences of individual or collective unity, those that embody them still remain largely fragmented. As yet, the intention to manifest unity consciousness has thus not been firmly anchored in our world. Someone who meditates is perceived as doing so as a private act and as part of his or her individual path. A meditation to heal the earth is seen as a basically uncommitted event of a day or two before things go back to “business as usual”. In society at large and its media it is relegated to a fringe phenomenon, despite the large number of people embracing it. I however feel that the Conscious Convergence will be, and has to be, a unique event that is something more than just another global meditation. It is about anchoring an intention to manifest unity consciousness on an ongoing basis.

The current fragmentation of both individuals and groups is a critical point. It is here I believe the Conscious Convergence will enter into the picture to give hope and visions for the future. Part of the reason that the intention towards unity consciousness has not been anchored in the consensus reality is that events may not have gathered a critical mass. I feel however that a more important factor has been that individual experiences and events have not always been perceived as steps in a cosmic time plan that has a clear direction towards unity consciousness. This absence of a context in time has probably had much more far reaching consequences than most people recognize. It has affected not only the role of those that have become awakened, but also a broad range of grass root movements focusing on progressive socioeconomic change. If such movements are unable to see how their aspirations are part of a cosmic time plan for the planet they too will be fragmented and their fruits often be temporary or incorporated in the already existing dualist civilization.

The fragmentation of the experiences of unity consciousness, and the absence of a collectively existing intention to manifest this, thus have consequences that go farther, much farther, than most people would tend to believe. It influences a very high number of organizations and projects that are potentially healthy to our planet because these, and the social movements they give rise to, exist without a context in time. All such movements that intend to manifest a world of unity consciousness may thus benefit from their participation in the Conscious Convergence exactly because this provides such a temporal framework. From this also follows an interest of the powers that be to suppress information about the Mayan calendar that may serve as inspiration and encouragement for those desiring a new course for our civilization.

The big media, including but not limited to Hollywood, have thus touted a distorted view of the Mayan calendar as simply a date in the future when something dramatic is supposed to happen. It is here almost irrelevant whether this change is seen as positive or negative, since such a view is so totally at odds with the Mayan calendar to begin with. The message of the media has thus been: “Do not take responsibility for co-creating the future! Just wait and see!” Nothing could be further from a Mayan perspective, and the truth, than an obsession with a singular date in the future, when something is supposed to just fall down on us from the sky. The Mayan calendar describes processes, processes that have been going on from the beginning of time and step by step have been lifting human beings to higher frames of consciousness. As part of this, humanity is now heading towards the initiation of a new process, the ninth wave, that is meant to take us to a place of unity consciousness where we have never been before. Hence, the solutions of the past are not particularly likely to be applicable and so we are now called to develop a new level of creativity.

The Mayan calendars have thus come to be perceived in a disempowering way, rather than as guiding tools for positive social and spiritual transformation. The reason for this is mainly that it is not generally known that there is not merely one, but in fact nine, calendars that are about to be completed. Each of these calendars describes a wave movement of evolution and it is the ninth of these that is designed to bring the unity consciousness that represents the current hope of mankind as it provides a necessary starting point for the birth of a new world. Yet, unless there is a conscious collective intention to affirm this ninth wave what is the likelihood that this will manifest? One might even ask whether without such an intention to manifest unity consciousness, anyone has reason to complain if it is not brought forth? To have this happen we need to align with this calendar in time, otherwise I believe we will lose our power to influence the course of events. The Conscious Convergence is thus set so that we will be able to prepare ourselves for the coming energies in advance and so be able to align with them. Unlike the Harmonic Convergence in 1987 that was a relatively spontaneous event, I, for one, believe that the Conscious Convergence in 2010, due to the current high speed of time, will need to be unified by a common intention in order to make a difference. As we approach the simultaneous manifestation of the nine waves there will be complicated overlappings of waves that may be difficult to surf without such a shared intention.

My vision for the Conscious Convergence is that it will be an event that helps people break out of the current constraints and fragmentation and facilitates for us to co‐create our future especially as now many of the established structures of society may be falling apart. With the impending unity consciousness many things that are not consistent with this are in fact becoming visible in the new light. An increasing number of people are losing faith in churches (Ireland and US), mosques (Iran) as well as bankers and politicians (all over), and so much of the previous functioning of the world may be overturned. It then becomes all the more important to establish an intention of manifesting unity consciousness as a basis for novel solutions. I however do not think that the Conscious Convergence is for those that contend themselves by pointing out and criticizing all the negative aspects of our current world and its system of rule. Rather it is for those that want to create a more positive intention, anchor this broadly and manifest it in the world.

An intention to manifest unity consciousness thus does not only serve to guide ourselves or our individual development, but here it also refers to the possibility that it may guide our civilization at large. Such a collectively shared intention held by a critical mass of people may start to live a life of its own and give a direction to a wide variety of projects. If this is to happen it is however critical that the intention is authentically held and not coming from a desire to look good in our own eyes, or in those of our friends, teachers or gurus. Only an intention authentically shared by a critical mass of sovereign individuals may play a positive role for co‐creating our future. Conscious Convergence then means that it is for people who are conscious of their intentions.

Unity consciousness does not mean conformism or that everyone is shaped in the same mold to think or look alike. Rather, unity consciousness will generate a world that is the very opposite to conformist. Because unity consciousness is about transcending the judgmental dualities and inherent dominance mentality generated by lower waves it allows for a much wider variety of viewpoints and life styles than previously. Thus, the Conscious Convergence refers to the coming together, convergence, of people from many different walks of life with very different backgrounds and viewpoints to express and experience a shared intention for the future.

The two initial days, July 17‐18, 2010, may be days for individual experiences of awakening as well as a collective expression of a new commitment to climb to the highest level of the Mayan calendar and co-­‐create a world truly based on peace. I for one however do not believe that the continued climb will be easy and no one knows exactly how long time it will take until the new world based on this new consciousness stabilizes. Yet, I also know that it is only through a shared intention aligned with the cosmic plan that there is any reasonable hope for a future. The Conscious Convergence is thus also about retrieving the Mayan calendar to its rightful place as a guide on the common path towards a world based on unity consciousness. In a time of dramatic change it becomes all the more important to have a firmly anchored intention to relate to as we approach the full completion of all nine calendars. I believe that only such an intention, existing on the level of our civilization, may serve to give us guidance in a time when the old social structures will very possibly disintegrate. The Hopi prophecy for instance urges us to gather ourselves and be good to each other. They warn that the time of the lone wolf is over. We can only survive if we cooperate on achieving common goals. This is obvious to any faithful Christian as well.

Many people realize that there will be a need to recreate our civilization in the time ahead and if nothing else a series of natural disasters have told people that this may now have reached a dead end. To get out of this dead end, many are suggesting profound changes of our current economic and social system in order for humanity to survive into a better world. This points to the Conscious Convergence also as an event for networking in a very broad sense. If the Conscious Convergence can gather people that are seeking this new direction and experience that they have the energies of the cosmic plan on their back then I would say that my vision of this event will have been fulfilled. It is however also part of my vision that millions will share their own visions based on this common intention of manifesting unity consciousness. The preparations for the ninth wave would allow many positive aspirations to be anchored in a purposeful process. When millions are taking the stand that there is a higher purpose to this planet than just to end in a series of disasters then I believe providence will move. When millions are showing each other that they too see a higher purpose to life, and intend to manifest it together, then a significant step towards the fulfillment of the cosmic plan will have been taken.

Carl Johan Calleman, 5 Jaguar.
Stockholm, March 27, 2010, 5 Ahau

Where did it go?

Mamaroneck Harbor

I had another weird experience this morning which I feel is really a shifting into/out of alternate realities. I went for my morning walk along the harbor and of course without a jacket or pocket, I carry my keys.  So after about 5 minutes I was consciously aware of the weight of the keys in my right hand and decided to shift them to the other hand. No I am not always so present with these types of actions, but on my walks–I think of them as moving meditations–I tend to be more so. 😉

So having decided to shift the keys to my left hand I did so…and instantly had the sensation in my right hand as if I had dropped something. So much so that I look to the ground to see whether I had! I had “forgotten” for several seconds that I moved the keys to my other hand, and yes, there they were, safe and sound, yet it “felt” like I had simply dropped “something.”

Keys to Changing Realities?

It may sound rather lame in describing this, however it was the weirdest sensation to make a conscious decision, act on it immediately and in the moment of doing so, instantly shift into a reality where I dropped “something,” presumably the keys. I felt as if I had shifted into another reality, even if only for an instant.

These moments happen to most of us at one time or another. I believe often times we are not aware of them, such as when we lose something knowing exactly where we put it, but then its not there– only to turn up somewhere completely different. Are we automatically just “losing it”…meaning our minds?? Sometimes, undoubtedly. But more and more I suspect that things which seem to appear and disappear need to be taken more at face value. That they may truly, be appearing and disappearing. And I believe this is happening with greater frequency as they layers between dimensions grow thinner, and we can shift more easily between them.

Military and NATO Retirees Speak Out on UFO’S

Sgt. Clifford Stone, Army UFO Consultant, Retired and Robert Dean, NATO Intelligence Analyst, Retired speak out on what the US government and NATO are aware of regarding interstellar, inter-dimensional and multidimensional intelligence that have communicated with us years (undoubtedly far longer).

How much longer will this cover up continue? I am not conspiracy minded, but I think that the days of controlling this information is coming to an end shortly, along with everything else that has stripped people of their innate power.

In fact, of more concern are the lies that have been set into place to discredit this inevitable global reveal in order to counter and distort. This is where discernment is so vital.

As always, now and going forward, listen above all to your own heart’s knowing.


Channel the Power of the Summer Solistice

Courtesy of Aluna Joy. For full announcement go to: http://www.kachina.net/~alunajoy/solarwave.html

The Solar Wave Countdown to the 2012 Shift of the Ages
This is a Joyful Invitation to Participate in an
Unquenchable Spiritual Evolution!
This is a call to ALL Light Workers and Way-Showers,
Mystics and Sages, Masters, Saints and Angels!
to participate the Great Grand Mother of all Ancient Count Downs.
YOU are being called …. YES YOU ! … to join the long awaited
Grand Universal Synchronization Celebration … a Spiritual Pandemic …
a Conscious Revolution of the ONE HEART.
Are you ready to raise up your hands, hearts
and wings to create a better world?
It is YOUR TIME to SHINE to create a new world!

You are the living bridges between all the cultures of the Earth.
You are the unification of all the religions.
You are the harmony between all social, economic, and spiritual classes.
You are the ones that shift negatives into a positive reality.
You are the ones that hold firm to the visions of a positive future.
You are the ones that are re-writing our future based on love, unity and harmony.
This future is beginning to manifest right before our eyes.
You are the ones that we have been waiting for.
You are your own ancestors returned.

Caution… Solar Wave participants around the world are known to be quite guilty of being eternally impassioned optimists for holding firmly and confidently to their beautiful vision of a new harmonious world! This affliction can be quite contagious and fatal to your misery, fear, paranoia, wariness, skepticism, uncertainty, lack, misfortune, and general ill heath. Warning … Participate in Solar Wave Ceremony Dates at your own Bliss. No one is responsible, but you, for any benefit you might receive.

Courtesy of Aluna Joy. For full announcement go to: http://www.kachina.net/~alunajoy/solarwave.html


A number of times in the last couple of weeks I have had a thought that formulated into a potential post for Exquisite Transitions. Good thoughts. Interesting thoughts. Some of them provocative even. Yet the thoughts were but flickers floating through. Never quite enough to them to capture. Not quite fully formed.

Perhaps its my current state of mind or focus–like many lightworkers now, we are aware that energy is coming at us from many dimensions at once. So I find myself captured by something here and there before some other flicker of a thought captures my focus to be carried off again in yet another dimension. And on it goes.

So please bear with me as I sit here in my inner IMAX theater following thought flickers floating around and waiting for which ones settle into my being long enough to germinate.

Sleeping – Puttering – Seed-Planting Kinda Day

Some days are strange…today was one of them.

It started last night actually when no matter what I tried, I couldn’t get to sleep. Not really problem as there was nothing I had to do or anywhere I had to be this morning. But the whole day shifted as a result. I finally fell asleep around 4 am.

When I woke around 8:30 I was still tired but again didn’t feel I could just go back to sleep. That’s when the first “strange” hit me: my husband was no where to be found! Very unusual for him these days. So I had to phone him find out that he too had a strange night and had to get out to move around as his legs were bothering him. “Okay, just so I know.”

After checking email etc for a bit, puttering here and there, I sat down with my DH at the computer and started an online application that he’s been needing to initiate. I was keen on taking advantage of the New Moon energy we are still in which is very potent and positive.

After this one foray into the bureaucracy of this 3D reality, we both felt sleepy enough to try to get some more sleep. So at 10:30 or so I lay down for a nap….until 2:30! For me, highly irregular! And what made it truly “strange” was the dream. In the “dream” I felt like I had was feeling very out of sorts and could not keep my eyes open. [I believe that I had a hard time re-entering my body on this “strange” day. I could not wake up!]

Struggling to Get Back In

In the “dream” I ended up feeling my way around, trying to do things like prepare a meal for my family without being able to see for more than brief moments at a time. It went on so long that we spoke about whether or not I needed to be taken to the hospital as something was clearly “wrong.” I was feeling out of it and very clear that I was not right some how.

Thankfully something clicked and I quickly realized that I had been struggling to wake up in my body, not just in my mind. I quickly was able to move ahead, but the feeling of being “out of it” took a little longer to shake.

Continuing the sleeping-puttering pattern the day had taken on, I decided to take out the garbage. Normally, nothing noteworthy about that. Today, I walk out and notice that the apartment next door was having an open house.

The place has been on the market for a year. New realtor, new hopes for a deal…and a half an hour conversation that was less than enlightening, but very much a feeling of a seed being planted for a future opportunity–an opportunity to bring me a buyer for my place just when I need it. Hmmm. Okay, I like that.

And now that I think of it, this was actually the SECOND communication with a realtor on this strange day. When I woke this morning I had a pull to email the broker for this house I’ve been keeping my eye on in Sedona.

Since returning from Sedona much of my focus and intention has been on creating an opportunity for us to move to and create a life in Sedona. I had some questions regarding this particular house and the market there, and got a very quick response to my questions.

I have NEVER made contact with a realtor who’s listing I’ve seen online! Understand, house hunting online has been a longtime hobby of mine. I am always looking for what would make a place “perfect” for us, considering the needs of all concerned. But this was “first contact” with a broker over a particular house.

For me this was another seed being planted: I was telling the Universe, I’m serious. I was taking the risk of making contact, knowing that I can’t see the “how” from where I am, but the intention is pure and strong.

So here I am at the end of this sleeping-puttering-seed planting day, having spoken to a Realtor about buying, another about selling, and helping my DH set into motion his next step as well.

On what I’ve been told was a picture perfect Spring Day, it seems that both my honey and I have been drifting in and out of this dimension, flowing with the energies of the moment and the day, taking some baby steps…and now we wait for further direction. 😉

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